The House Of Immortality

I'm making plans to sever all my ties to my close friends tomorrow. All of them.

Yeah that's cool. I come back here for emotional support during hard times and there win no body on ever! Fucking great. Y'all are great you know that! Just fucking splendid. I'm always afraid to say what's on my mind cuz there ain't no one who gives a shit or helps any. Y'all just want me to shut up. I can't fckin have an opinion about a teen mom or about someone's fucked up spelling or nothin! Can't say what I think! Nah, might offend someone! Can't have that! I always got to impress everyone. Always gotta be the perfect one. Never drag other people down with you, never see someone in pain, never hurt anyone. Well I'm fucking done wit bein hurt by other people. I'm not sure I give a shy about hurting people anymore cause ain't no one who gives a shit if they rip my fuckin heart out of my motherfucking goddamn CHEST!!!

Woah, Mort... i care. You're a great friend and you're really unique! Im sorry im not on when you need someone to talk to... I wish i had internet on my phone so I could check this site all the time, but I don't. Its not that we don't care, its just that everybody has something going on. In London, is like 4am, where i am, its 11 and usually im asleep by now. Like I said, we all have our problems... and im sorry im not here when you need someone, but i mean if you want you can email me, and we can chat when ever you want! Ill be sure to check it as much as i can! Otherwise, i wont be on here 24/7....
My email is: morganlil1798@gmail.com
If you want it of course...

Thanks. I've just been reaching my limit recently. Not just letting it out in one burst. I'm just angry a lot. And it's effecting people around me. And I try not to let it by it does.

Sometimes we hurt the ones we care most about... I understand what that feels like...

Yeah. That's why I want to leave my friends in part. So I stop hurting them. And so I stop stressing about them so much.

Roleplaying and horseback riding are my escapes. My way of dealing with the pain.
Sometimes you have to decide what you think is best for your friends and whats best for you...

I think it's best for my friends if I stay with them but it's best for me if I leave. At least for a few days.
And this used to be my escape. I try to not have escapes anymore. I prefer to deal with my problems, even if it's harder.

And I need to go now. I'm getting pretty tired. And it's getting pretty late there.

I should do the same. Goodnight, Mort. I shall email you in the morning

O.O I care, and I just don't want your opinions to turn to arguements because you made this f***ing site to avoid arguements! Go ahead and say whatever, as lonf as it doesn't turn into an arguement because I don't want this site to be ruined like the old HOI -_- Sorry, I just feel really offended that you said I don't care, especially since I've been caring about you for 3 years now, worrying about you whenever you went into depression mode and just because I need to go to bed and no one else is on you throw a fit over it! You're like a sister to me, Mort, you all are, so don't you EVER say I don't care, just because I happen to be asleep -_-

O.O... Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. And way too early... *Pushes Wolfsoul out of the room.* Bed. Now.

we all care about you mort. I dont know why yoou saay we dont. (stupid keybored sorry about extra letters) I honestly thoguht you and lilj would have a huge argument. Im glad it didnt go into one. Sometimes saying things could offend other people. sometimes when you say something, sometimes it gets taken the wrong way. Wolfy is right about worrying about the depression thing, i know i was worried for you. I hoped that you would get outta that state. i know i'm glad you got out of it and started doing what you like. you shouldnt get mad about it though...

Suzie Sylvester; "Dont worry," Suzie said with a grin, happy that Logan seemed to be going along with her genius plan, "I won't embarrass her. Maybe i can find a job in her district in the future. Make some friends. Then i could get time off if she gets sick, or we wanna go somewhere or something." Smiling now, she pressed a series of kisses to her boyfriend's lips, "Our future's beginning to sound great. And I'm glad i get to spend my future with you." It sounded cheesy, like a line from an old movie, but it was all truth. She couldn't wait for them to be engaged, and she couldn't wait to grow up. Funny, huh? Usually people wanted to stay young, but not Suzie. she wanted to grow old with Logan and watch Linette grow old as well. They would be a cute little happy family for as long as they all lived.

I care about you mort! And I have an opinion on teen mums as well, your not the only one, I just keep my trap shut though because I don't want to start an argument. Personally, I don't care if what you say offends me, cause I can get over things pretty quickly, some people just take things the wrong way And I know my comment is shorter than there's, but I don't feel as close to you as others, but maybe that can change?

Anyway I don't wanna go to school today! DX I have an assembly, then something's happening in maths what no one will tell us about! After that it's science which is actually alright. Then health and social which I need to catch up in because I missed a lesson due to MADD, then I have english which is the only lesson that I'll actually enjoy today but I think we have PD instead -_- then cooking.

we have an assembly tomorrow (friday) too lol. pep assmebly, which translates to "i get to talk to vicky and kimmy for an hour while people do weird shit in the middle of the gym" so... lol....

anyways, hello. ^_^ how are you?

Even when living on Earth, I had to do my job as an angel, which sucked because it meant less time with Nathalie. Today I was helping a few scared people pass through to Heaven, which was considered a pretty important job, usually only for those who were higher up, but maybe they were testing me to see if I could handle it. I had to admit, it was kinda tough, especially when I had to help a 7 year old kid pass, but I managed not to cry or anything and just moved on to some of the lighter tasks for a while. I just wished 4pm came sooner, that's when, I guess you could say, my shift was over and I got to go home and relax with Nathalie and just do normal human stuff. I liked doing the human stuff more than I liked doing the angel stuff.

Aha! I knew what to do! Thank you, Chekov and mom! I was about to bark instructions at Hayden, but Toby seemed to want him to stay. Ok, maybe this will be harder than expected. "Toby, Hayden needs to get me some stuff to make you feel better, and it'll only take him, like, 5 minutes, even less than that probably, so can you please let go of him a sec?" Without even waiting for an answer, I decided to do the order-barking. "Haydie, there's a hot water bottle under my bed, grab that please, and grab a cold, slightly damp washcloth from the bathroom." I told my boyfriend, reaching up into the cupboard to grab the chamomile tea bags and some ginger so that I could prepare a cup. Chamomile helped with stomach cramps (and pms!) and ginger stopped nausea, so this would be really helpful if Toby drank it. I was a little worried he'd hate the taste and refuse to drink it though... Well, if he didn't drink it, I'd just have to force him to drink it or something, because I wasn't in the mood to be messed with today.

Ever since the kids went to school this morning, I started on my online classes, going non-stop through the notes, committig them to memory at just a glance. I could take the exams in June - I actually had to do that at the school because of 'exam conditons' and stuff - so I was well on track for learning everything I needed to. After a while, though, I started getting thirsty. As a vampire with great control, I was meant to be feeding off of the people Caius and James brought to the mansion, but I just couldn't bring myself to bite anyone because of my personal reasons regarding my parents, so I stole a blood bag, poured the blood into a non-see-through cup, and started drinking it, taking a well earned break from my first day of studies which would hopefully help to build a better future for my kids.

Sierra and I were in the guest room, which was kinda our room now, I guess. We weren't really doing much, just lying on the bed, talking, kissing, looking down at Sierra and beaming like an idiot because I now had an adult girlfriend, an older adult girlfriend who was incredibly beautiful. Pressing another kiss to Sierra's lips, I decided to talk about her new age. "Y'know, you can do pretty much whatever you want now that you're 22! You can drink, drive - not at the same time - get a job, smoke - although I'd rather you didn't - and, uh, get up to other things." Heck, Sierra was old enough to get married and have kids, which was kind of a scary, nerve-wracking thought for me but... Yeah... And besides, before any of that happened, I wanted us to move out of 7th Heaven and into our own place, 'cause then we could, like, start our own lives together, if that makes sense...

Nathalie stayed with me the whole day while I did my first online lessons. I found it pretty hard, actually, since I couldn't do most simple math and stuff, but Nathalie was taught some stuff by the people in charge when she was a spy, so she helped me out. It took a while, but I eventually figured things out. After a couple hours full of learning and little snacks to keep me going, I got bored and gave up, shutting down Nat's laptop. That's when I looked out of the window and spotted Kyle walking towards the masnion. "Prepare for the interrogation, Natty! The Kyle has landed!" I said with a smirk, bouncing up and down a little on thebed in excitement.

"Mhmm, not as much as I did, but still, she missed you a lot." I replied, catching up and taking hold of Tifa's hand, pressing a kiss to it. We headed upstairs then and I pressed a finger to my lips to tell Tifa to be quiet. Claire probably already heard that her mom was home, but it was worth a try to surprise her. Knocking on the door, I called in to our little girl. "Claire, someone's here to see you."

"Mhmm. I wonder what we'll do now?" Smirking I kissed Tyler, a hand tangling in the hair at the back of his head as I increased the passion. I was about to straddle my husband, despite my current heaviness, and make things more interesting, but then Cody skipped downstairs with his backpack and I had to pull away quickly. "I-I Wasn't doing anything!" Cody looked at me confusedly and I bit my lip. He then came over and gave me and Tyler hugs. 'Bye mummy, bye daddy.' "Bye Cody-kins, have a good day." He went to wait for TJ at the front door and I silently whispered to Tyler, "Well, we're almost alone." I honestly couldn't wait until the kids went to school now!

"No, I haven't been in before, I've just looked in the window and it seems really nice." I answered with a smile. It was a pretty small cafe but from the menus on the walls, it looked as if they pretty much served everything, from sandwiches to icecream, from breaskfast to dessert. It was quite intriguing, actually, that such a tiny cafe sold so much. Plus the staff looked rather friendly, not the kind to start flirting with customers.
((Early-morning syndrome DX))

"Just pull back on the reins a little and say woah." I answered, giving the gentlest of shrugs as I walked beside Dilynn, trying not to give Ol' Dusty any mixed messages and accidentally make her go faster. "That's what Rachel does and it seems to work with Chocolate." It wasn't technically the right way to do it, but I didn't really want to make things more complicated right now since Dilynn was a newbie. Maybe we'd work on proper technique another day.

Once I had washed everything, I went upstairs to get dressed since I hadn't actually done that yet, carefully sneaking past Dayna and Kara so that KJ didn't see me in my current state of undress. Once upstairs, I showered and brushed my teeth and got changed into some clean clothes before heading back downstairs and picking Kara-Jayne up. "Muwahahaha! I've stolen a KJ!" I messed around a little before just setting Kara on my waist. "Good morning, princess! Want any breakfast today?" Looking over at Dayna, I flashed her a smile, then turned my attention back to the little girl I was holding.

A warlock, hm? A friend of Ryan's was another positive, because it meant that I could probably trust him, or keep a close eye on him with Ryan's help if needed, but still... "He better not hurt Kiara, mentally, physically or emotionally." I grumbled, my grip on Ryan's hand tightening until I moved it to wrap around her waist. The mansion was coming into sight now, and I knew that we'd have to go and see the kids straight away, slow I slowed our pace. It didn't seem to work though so I groaned stop stopped, burying my head into Ryan's neck. "5 more minutes, just 5 more minutes of alone time please."

Hope giggled as Kodi's hair tickled her, partically her nose which then caused her to sneeze. She clapped her hands excitedly at the fact that Kodi agreed to curl his hair and replied, "Daddy and Ryan can have their hair curled too. Everyone can have a curly day!" Looking down at Bentley, she pouted. "Not Bentley, though, he doesn't have a lot of hair."

I frowned slightly and heaved a sigh. Maybe I was being a bit harsh, I mean, mom said she'd be here and yet I was still treating her coldly. Hopping off of the counter, I walked over to mom and placed a hand on her shoulder. "I'm sorry, I'm still bitter from what happened a year ago, but... I'll try to be nicer..." I was just mad becaise mom didn't realise how badly her reactions had affected us, but maybe I should just put it in the past now that she was here. Maybe...

I smiled a little and hugged Trent back, not caring about the awkwardness because Trent's awkwardness was kinda cute in my opinion. "Thanks, Trent, you're axreally good friend to blackmail all your other friends into being nice to me." I gave Trent a thank ypu kiss on the cheek, then blushed as I realised exactly what I had done, and the fact that it might not have just been a thank you kiss, because I think I kinda like liked Trent. I dunno, though, does having a crush on someone feel like you have butterflies in your stomach and a stupidly fast heartbeat? And did it make you want to always be with that person? Always hugging them?

"Why thank you, Suzie, and I'm glad to be spending my life with you too." I replied sincerely, returning all off Suzie's kisses. Using the switch on the wall beside the bed, I turned off the lights and then closed my eyes. "We should probably get to sleep now, Suzie, we don't want to be like the living dead in the morning." I chuckled slightly before adding. "Goodnight, love you." and falling asleep next to my girlfriend.

I bit my lip, holding back a moan as James kissed my neck, then relaxed once he was done, nodding my heading in agreement. "Yes, there must be at least one blood bank willing to donate to us, I am sure about it." Sitting in James' lap - now this brought back memories - I wrapped an arm around James neck while the index finger of the other arm played with the top button of James' - my - shirt. The man certainly did look wonderful in my clothes. "It seems to me that you need some more time to relax, love." I commented, slowly looking up from the button to smirk slightly at James. "I could offer a distraction from the stressful work if you wish."

I chuckled a little and kissed Sammi's head before whispering, "Bored my *ss, you're just procrastinating." I teased, my hand slipping into Sammi's back pocket, right near her butt. Speaking louder, I added, "And thank you, Jenna, I am a good guy, aren't I?" I smirked. Talk about a major confidence boost!

Meh. Really do not want to school. Oh well.

It's sunny today... I might wear sunny clothes... If I don't fall asleep first...

It's cloudy over here, and I'm already at the bus stop! XD

Lemme change that. I'm already on the bus

Lol XD I win. I has sun

Sammi: Damn, Jason knew me far too well! I was most definitely procrastinating from studying, but I was procrastinating because I was bored! So ha! Although that was all in my thoughts. So Jason had been telling Jenna how awesome I am, "I'm surprised Jason's never told me about you, you seem like a very nice girl." I said to her before looking at Jason, as if I was questioning him why he hadn't told me about Jenna before, just by looks, but I looked away quickly before Jenna realised anything. "But yeah, Jason is a great guy." I agreed with her. I didn't know what Jason was playing at, but slipping his hand in my back pocket while Jenna was here? That was a bit rude, but maybe she didn't notice, but she might notice if I tried to stop him, but to be honest I didn't really mind. So I just left it.

*Chuckles.* Poor naive Sammi, she doesn't realise Jenna can't see XD She's lucky I'm not gonna tease her too much! XD Yeah yeah whatever. I'll come up with a reply at college. Right now I have to go, bye!

I'm not mad because you were asleep. I just lost it for a bit. I just don't feel like I can talk here anymore. That's all. I'm not depressed anymore, okay? I'm not about the to hang myself or cut or bite or whatever. I just get angry sometimes. Especially when I feel like I'm slipping back.

Good morning

monrin