The House Of Immortality

Chloe: I wasn't able to keep it together then, I looked up with teary eyes. "Trusting people isn't the problem, it's the fact that I trust people too much. I think they'll always be there, a safety net of some sort. There to keep me sane, to-to stop me from becoming the mess I am right now. But then... Then they see how bad it can get and they want no-nothing to do with me anymore. Nobody è-ever wants to have anything to do with the crazy girl. And I do t even blame them for leaving, I mean, look at me!" I gestures towards my body, pausing a moment to take a sip of the whiskey. It burned my throat a little but I didn't care. "I fucking hate myself and can totally get why they leave, but you know, a text, a call or just a note that says 'sorry but I cant stand you bye' would be enough, you know?" I wiped the teara from my eyes with my sleeve before taking another sip of the vile alcohol.

Chloe: That's what they all say, that they'll be here and I didnt know whether to believe it anymore. "How? How do I let you help me because I dont know anymore." How did you ask people to help? Or even let them help? I thought I knew, but so far everything had just gone wrong. I had to be doing something wrong. "People are just better off without me, Charlie's happy now, I've seen pictures of Lauren and I've never seen her smile as big and Derik was in such a great mood when I went in to see him. Then I opened my big stupid mouth. And all my other friends? Well they're getting on just fine in lives so I'm clearly not needed in their lives." The whiskey was gone all too quick, and I ran out after I took a big gulp of it, regretting it immediately after though.

And I'm awake again! Morning all!

Matt Lanter is a frequently used FC around here, apparently people really like him.
Yeah, yeah... Wolfie is here and awake and I'm ready to see Abby so...
Right, yeah, sorry. You happen to know where she is, Wolfie?

Appaerently he's hot! XD And i think I looked up Maxwell Zar-whatever and it came up with that picture so... Yeah...

And Abby is sleeping in her room, but she'd love to be woken up right now.

And hi ^_^

Tyrah I'm pretty sure I had him for acharya tee at one point XD

That sentence made no sense to me O.o

Ahaha oops I need sleep

Yeah! Why did you ask me what I was doing awake at 4am? You should've been asking yourself that!

I tried. It didn't work out so...

You tried sleeping and it didn't work out?

Yep ^_^ Well, I drifted off for a few hours then it got too hot sono just laid in bed waiting for it to cool down then I just gave up and went on tumblr since I couldn't get back to sleep ^_^

Poor Scampi Go to bed early tonight, otherwise you'll be exhausted in the morning.

I'm always exhausted but ok

Good. Good girl

Heh heh. That's just started playing on my phone XD

Huh???

There's a song called Good Girls and I just found that amusing since it started playing just before I saw the post XD

Ah, I see, fair enough ^_^

Yeah... Okay I'm waking up a bit now ^_^

Cool. I'm waking up too, but very slowly >.<

wolfy do you have replies? I need a repostie o.o

It was less than a week until Elsa and I went on holiday to Spain. Having prior knowledge to this, I had already packed everything besides the stuff I used everyday like my toothbrush and deodrant. Did I pack a little too far in advance? Maybe, but I just liked having everything sorted as soon as possible. Maybe that sort of mentality would come in handy when I was King of Arendelle, I don't know, I've never really known much about how Kings and Queens act in everday life until I met Elsa (My visits to my father were very few and far between).

Anyway, I digress. Since all of my stuff was done, I was helping Elsa pack. She pulled out everything she wanted to take and, apart from the underwear that I was forbidden to touch, I packed everything else in a neat and orderly manner. Elsa placed her bikini in the bag next - I guess I wasn't allowed to touch that, either - and I pursed my lips as I looked down at it. "Y'know, we - you - might need to buy another bikini before we go. You can't exactly wear the same bikini for 7 days." I shrugged slightly, continuing to pack things for my girlfriend. After a moment of comfortable silence, I spoke up once again. "Did you learn Spanish when you were younger?" I asked. "You know, as part of your 'How to be a Queen' lessons?" I had tried to learn Spanish for the past couple months, but I had also been learning Norwegian, and learning two languages at the same time, when I already struggled with languages, was pretty tough. Hopefully Elsa knew some pretty fluent Spanish, because we'd probably need to rely on that.

It was still weird waking up, looking in a mirror and seeing an older version of me. I liked the change, don't get me wrong, it was just going to take some getting used to, not just physically but, well, being 23 - an adult - opened a lot of new doors, like drinking, possibly working in a bar (it'd be nice to do that again, and this time legally!), moving out, marriage, kids... It was a lot to take in, but there were also some setbacks.

Holland had been freaking out about the possibility of getting Schizophrenia lately. She told me that her mom had been roughly this age when she started showing symptoms and this had put Holland on the edge, making her jumpy whenever she thought I had said something when I didn't or something along those lines. I told her that everyone has days like that but... Yeah... She wasn't buying it. I was still sticking to my guns, insisting that Holland wasn't going to become like her mom, but I figured I should look up schizophrenia just in case.

I didn't need as much sleep as humans - I could survive on 5 hours - so, once Holland had fallen asleep late in the night, I had snuck out and gone hunting briefly, then returned and started looking up schizophrenia on the laptop in the darkness. Apparently it started in the late 20's... F***... I bit my lip and kept reading, not enjoying what I read at all. There were two types of schizophrenia, one which Holland's mom had, and another that could make her lose her emotions. What if she got that kind? What if she stopped being able to love me anymore? No, I couldn't think like that. Holland wasn't going to get schizophrenia, she was going to be perfectly fine. Shutting the laptop, I put it away and then fell back to sleep.

As soon as I woke, though, the thoughts plagued my mind. Maybe Holland's worrying was getting to me, too, I mean, I loved her and was concerned about her, and this whole schizophrenia thing?... Maybe we just needed to take a break from it and find a good distraction for the day? My first distraction, I decided, was going to be a shower. Sneaking into Holland's bathroom, I stripped off my clothes, looking at myself in the mirror like I seemed to do every morning now, as if to remind myself of the changes, then jumped into the shower. As the hot water rained down against my skin, I tried to think of where I could take Holland on our day off. Anywhere that required very little thinking - or maybe even thinking hard about something else - would be perfect for us right now.

I had awoken early, earlier than my husband, and had taken a stroll around the mansion in my loose-fitting PJs, because sometimes that just helped me feel a little better. I then returned to our bedroom and stood by the window, looking out to the dismal weather outside while ine hand rubbed my stomach. Our child - we didn't know whether it was a boy or girl, we wanted it to be a surprise - would be due in early April, but with the way winter seemed to roll into March last year, I was beginning to wonder if our baby would really be a spring baby, or if it'd be a winter baby. Would it be snowing in early April? Would we even be able to get to the hospital? What if we didn't? There were just so many thoughts in my mind, along with so many worries, I just hoped that, whatever the weather, the little one would come into the world safely, with no problems.

Henry had college today, and both Sora and Micah had school. I was both boyfriend-less and childless so what did I end up doing? Spending the day with Kennedy and Valerie! In all honestly, it wasn't that bad. It wasn't as energetic as spending the day with Anna, but at least it wasn't as... Formal as spending it with Elsa. And besides, I was happy to help Kennedy out, since I kinda knew what I was doing and could give her tips.

Right now I was bouncing Valerie up and down slightly as I carried her. She was still less than a year old, but was growing bigger and stronger as the days went by. She always seemed to have a smile on her face when I saw he, probably because I was her favourite guest - why wouldn't I be? "Well look at you, Valerie! You must've grown twice as big since I last saw you!" I was exaggerating, of course, but it wasn't as if the kid would be able to realize that!

Valerie reached up to me at that point, so I shifted her into one arm and let her grab the index finger of my now-free hand. My eyes widened as I tried to wiggle my finger out and struggled. "You've got quite a good grip, there too! I bet that's a werewolf thing, huh? Y'know, you're gonna be one bad*ss fighter one day with strength like that! And I'm gonna teach you all there is to know about kicking butt, right Ken?" I glanced over to my friend with a slight smirk. Whether or not I was joking about teaching Valerie to fight one day, I wasn't sure, but putting the thought of Valerie becoming some super-tough brawler into Kennedy's mind was an opportunity I just couldn't skip out on! It had to be done!

My kind of angel work was pretty tough, I mean, there weren't many people who'd be able to take guiding dead kids' souls to Heaven in their stride, but I tried not to let it bother me, you know? I tried not to think about the kid having died but, well, that by taking them to Heaven, I was taking them to a safe place. Besides, if I dwelled on the negatives, I'd bring Nat's mood down as well. That's why, when I came home from work today, I tried to put on a smile for Nat's sake. Sure, the smile was a bit forced but after, like, half an hour with my gorgeous girlfriend it'd be genuine. Heading up to Nat's room, I knocked on the door before peeking into the room, seeing the beautiful Inu in question working on some sort of charcoal project. "I'm back!" I exclaimed, stepping in and heading over to Nathalie and pressing a kiss to her cheek. "Did you miss me as much as I miss you, Miss McAllister?"

There had been some strange people outside the mansion. They had seemed to be surveilling a particular room - the first room on the first floor, from what I could see - but now, after some sort of technical difficulties, they had left. Even so, I stood by the living room window, staring at where they had been in case they returned. That little girl, Luna, inhabited that first room. I could only assume the technical difficulties had been her doing, but why had those people been surveilling her room? Perhaps I needed a witch or warlock to put some protection spells on the mansion, just in case they returned and tried to cause trouble...

Sammi was taking a break from the court case she was working on, but even then she was busy. A few weeks ago when she talked to Jeremy about setting him up with a colleague, well, apparently she wasn't joking! She was sat on our bed as I walked in after a day at work, her eyes fixed on a list of names with some pros and cons next to them. I didn't focus on what she was doing for long, though, because I was distracted by the fact that she was only in her underwear and one of my t-shirts. Never had a woman looked sexier, and she wasn't even naked! Letting out a breath I hadn't realized had even caught in my throat , I walked over to the bed, kicking off my shoes before sitting next to my girl. "You do realize that, if you screw this up, it'll cost us one, maybe two, wedding presents, right?" I teased her, pressing a kiss to her cheek before focusing on running my hand up and down one of those dangerously exposed thighs. F***, if Sammi wasn't wearing a bra under my shirt, then there was no way in hell I'd be able to let her continue working!

Maybe it was a bad idea to have an animal on top of the kitchen counter, but this kitten had incredibly clean paws - I had just washed them this morning - so I could garuntee that it wasn't tracking any dirt or germs. It was Abby's job to look after the kitten but, well, I just so happened to be awake so I decided to deal with it while she was sleeping with Holland. I would've dealt with Jupiter too but, well, I thought it was best to let sleeping dogs lie.

"You gonna eat some solid food today?" I asked the kitten as I sat on a stool in front of her, drinking a glass of blood. "Nah, no offense but I think think you're ready yet. Maybe another week of bottle feeding and then you'll be ready." I chuckled as the kitten attacked a potted plant that rested in the centre of the island, letting it do so for a minute before pulling the kitten away. "Ok, ok, easy. Easy, tiger, I think you've beaten it." I chuckled, scratching the tiny thing behind it's ear. Considering how weak and malnurished it was just a week ago, it was pretty damn awesome how fiesty and well-fed it looked now. It might have been a joint responsibility between me, Abby and her friend, Michelle, bit it was Abby who had put us all together and co-ordinated us, not to mention she had done the most for the kitten. I had to say, I was quite impressed with Abby's kitten-rearing, and her surprisingly caring, almost motherly side.

A tummy ache? Luna glanced down at the bowl of icing in her arms, debating the pros and cons of eating more icing. Unfortunately, a tummy ache seemed to be a deal-breaker, and Luna frowned, mumbling a, "No..." As she reluctantly put the finished icing on the counter and pushed it as far away from her as possible. Standing on her tippy toes, Luna watched Alex move the cookies onto the baking rack, pursing her lips as an idea came to mind. "Can I draw us on some of the cookies? She asked, trying to figure out all the colours she'd need in her mind. Pink for the faces, white, yellow and red for their hair, and blue and brown ((Alex's eye colour?)) for the eyes. It was going to be tough to make so many colours, but it'd be worth it. And maybe, if she managed to draw herself, mommy and daddy, she could draw the rest of her family, too!

Ooh, Kyle didn't like that nickname; I could tell from his squinty reaction. Still, I thought it was cute, so it was staying and, besides, he was literally gonna become a Daddy Kyle one day - in 9+ months, apparently - so he'd have to get used to it. I beamed at Kyle's decision, nodding in agreement. "Sounds good to me! Great, actually!" Finally! I had gotten through to the oblivious dummy and now I was a step closer to being a mom and having the family I'd always dreamed of! I squealed in excitement, kissing Kyle on the lips this time, and snuggled into him as my imagination started running wild. "I'm so excited! We're gonna be parents! And our baby will be sooo adorable, with little doggy ears and a little doggy tail, and blue eyes and blonde hair like you, and maybe even your firey powers! Maybe it'll sneeze fire! That'd be adorable! Dangerous, but adorable!" I giggled a little, but then gasped in shock. "We've practically just held a family meeting and one member of the family wasn't invovled!" I exclaimed, mad at myself for not thinking this through. "Should I go and get Sunny? She deserves to know that her family's gonna get bigger! Oh! While I explain things to her, maybe you can go and cook some breakfast? For all three of us? Lots of bacon for me, please! And a glass of water! Thank you, Kylie Kyle! Love you!"

It was a miracle that my heart was still functioning by the end of Matio's speech. It had sped up but also felt like it had stopped at the same time, even though that wasn't possible and didn't make any sense. Just hearing him say that he wanted to be here for me, seeing the tears form in his eyes which caused tears to form in mine too. He had left to deal with family drama and help his brother. Not only that but he hadn't called because he felt like he'd be sparing me any more stress, and I knew that I'd probably do the same if I was in his position. Besides, if I could forgive Elsa for supposedly hitting me in the head with ice magic, surely I could forgive Matio for choosing his family over me, right?

"I love you, too." I finally blurted out, rubbing a few tears from my eyes and crossing the distance to give Matio a hug. "It's ok. You're here now, so it's fine. Your visit was just postponed, is all. At least you're here now when I really need someone." Because it was true, I hated being alone and, before Matio had shown up, I felt the most alone that I had been in over a year. Now I wasn't alone anymore, I had Matio by my side and, this time, he really was going to stick by me and help me through all the stressful things I had to deal with. This caused me to smile a little, despite the tears still shining in my eyes and, to make sure he knew that everything between us was ok again, I gave him a kiss.

Then I remembered we weren't alone.

I pulled back with a start, blushing bright red as I looked over to Matio's brother who was standing there just as awkwardly as I felt right now. "Sorry, I, uh- I didn't mean- I-I forgot that- I'm sorry, that was awkward. N-Not kissing your brother! I mean I'm awkward. I'm-" My rambling was getting us nowhere. I took a deep breath to compose myself and, unable to meet the younger Bianchi's eyes out of pure embarassment, I held out my hand for a handshake. "Anna. I'm Anna." Could the world just bury me alive right now? It'd be a much nicer fate than having to suffer this terribly awkward and embarassing introduction!

"Alright, then. Aimless walk it is." I smiled down at Rose before leading her outside. It had been pretty sunny for most of winter, but now that it was Soring, things were going to get worse - or better, whichever way you looked at it. The sun's warm rays shone down on us as we walked, not really paying attention to any passers by, just paying attention to each other. "So, how was your day? Did you miss me?" I asked Rose, swinging our hands a little in between us. Sure, it was a little childish, but I kinda liked it. Maybe it was a sign that a part of me wished we were kids again, when we didn't have to worry about finance, work, college of even vicious vampires that wanted to kill us. Back when we were younger, it was just me and Rose in our own little innocent, naive bubble, and I have absolutely no idea why I gave that up for the real world.
((Oh boy, Zack's becoming a deep-thinker like his sister >.<))

Well at least James didn't make up some exaggerated story of how we met. He actually kept it pretty close to the truth - we did meet in a bar and I did give him my number - there was just one small issue. 'You went to a bar? I thought you hated bars, Maria.' I did, I only went to the bar with James because it was a part of my assignment. An assignment that Laura couldn't know about. "I do." I answered as I walked into the kitchen, leaning against the counter. "But I had a rough night that night and figured 'Why drink alone at home when I can drink with other people and try to have some fun?'" I shrugged at my lie to make it seem more nonchalant, hoping to throw Laura off of my case. 'Oh, well, next time you have a rough night call me, ok?' She replied as she poured herself a glass of juice and put he carton away. 'You can't go to a bar alone, the streets aren't safe that time of night.' Yeah, didn't I know that! I gave Laura a smile, genuinely touched by her concern even though I couldn't really accept her offer to join me on nights out, since those nights often involved destroying Strigoi bodies. "Thanks, Laura, but I'll be fine. I've got pepper spray and the speed of a gazelle." Laura lauhed at that and nodded an ok, dropping the subject as she drank her juice. I took that opportunity to peer down at the bacon James was cooking, raising an eyebrow at it. "Exactly how crispy do you like your bacon, James? If you're not careful, you'll burn it."