The House Of Immortality

Herro!

haii

How're you?

good, sleepy and such

Cool cool.

I'm in math class, so far, this is me: @_@

You'll figure it out eventually.

yeah right xD

Maybe ypu should try believing in yourself. If you don't think positive, you'll notwant to try it whe revising and then you'll never understand it :/

do you guys learn 'polynomicals' or whatever they're called

Polynomials? It rings a bell but it's been a while since I've done maths so... Yeah...

Meep.

Fuck's sake. Dad's the cause I bite myself and cause myself harm. Oh do this send that. He hates the fact that I like to fucking sleep! Oh it's ten pm, phone you grandad! Oh you were asleep? Idgaf. Get out f the clothes you accidentally felk asleep in and don't go backto bed until youve sent me a ticket bdcause I've been stuck for so long and care more about a game than my daughter.

Good gosh, a Stevie+Sarah and Bria+Chrissy collab? Bria's crazy, Stevie's crazy, Chrissy's half-crazy, it's a gonna be a bunch f craziness! XD

And in other news, just tell your dad to f*** off? I don't know, I don't really know what advice I can give except... Maybe find another outlet rather than self harm? Go on some anti-depressants? Seriously, Scampi, you're getting worse and worse everytime you come online, you need to find your local depression clinic - there should be one, it's an NHS thing - and see someone, they could help you overcome this before you end up digging your own grave.

New posts:

So I had my beautiful girlfriend back and things had started to go back to normal; video games, snuggling and even fading every now and then. Today was one of the video games and I had just kicked Alix's *ss in SuperSmashBros Brawl. After rubbing in her face juuust a little - we could both be competitive -, I gave her kisses to make up for it, making her lie back on the rec room's couch with me hovering over her in the process. I was reluctant to pull away from her soft lips, but I did so eventually in order to speak up about something I'd be meaning to talk about simce last night. "So, Miss Taken," I murmured, nuzzling her neck slightly. "Would you like to go on a date with me tonight? We can go anywhere you want, just say the word and I'll arrange it." We hadn't really celebrated being back together yet; it was about time we did that.

Sammi had her first interview with a law firm today and, since it was a Saturday, I didn't have work, so I soent the majority of the day looking up some random wedding c*** that I had to do like suits and speeches and non-religious vows. It was all a big blur of 'WTF' to me and eventually I gave up, settling for cooking my girl the most elaborate dinner I could think up. Which was just chicken with cheese in the middle in a tomatoey sauce with pasta. Eh, it would do. It placed the meals - I had cooked for me, too, obviously - on Sammi's desk along with a bottle of white wine and two glasses. Luckily, she returned soon afterwards while I was trying to deal with a Yuki who was digging her class into my thigh. Once the damn cat was dealt with, I gave my fiancée a small smile. "You don't have to say how it went if you don't want to," I told her, gesturing over to the food, "Buuut, I did cook some fancy stuff. Whether it's comfort food or celebratory food is entirely up to you, but I thought I'd put in a little effort today." Which, actually, probably wasn't a brilliant idea, because if things went badly, Sammi would probably be desperate for Chinese food right now. Damn it!

Abigail was on vacation for a week or two, giving Daniel more free time. I, however, had no free time, for I had to decorate the entire mansion with christmas decorations. Nevertheless, Daniel and I tried to spend the time together as he assisted me with my task. We had practically spent all day decorating and were now in the living room, putting up the ceiling decorations. After placing some mistletoe above the fireplace, I climbed down the ladder and gave my love a tender kiss. "And now to try and assemble the christmas tree, unless you would prefer to take a break first." I suggested, wrapping my arms around his neck and playing with the hair at his nape.

So, since Nathalie and I were officially boyfriend and girlfriend again, I figured I'd take her out for the day. Sure, it was cold, but we could always dress up warmly and... I don't know, walk in the park, grab a bite to eat at lunchtime, you know, something couples didn't that didn't require too much effort and planning. First, though, Nat needed to wake up and have breakfast. I made her pancakes with some sort of berry sauce over it, trying to pick the healthier option, and headed upstairs. I didn't walk straight in like I would've a year ago, knowing that it'd probably take Nat a little while to remember me so, yeah, having what seemed to be a stranger in your room was not good. No, instead of walking right in and risking being beat up, I knocked and waited for Nathalie to answer. Once she recognized me, she'd allow me into her room. It just took a little patience, is all.

With the halloween antics over things went back to normal for Sierra and I. We both had to work today and she was already home by the time I had finished, cooking something up for dinner though I was pretty sure she was meant to be out hunting. When was the last time she drank blood, anyway? "I could've done that for you if you had waited a little while." I pointed out, setting my stuff down on the couch before moving over to the kitchen area and kissing my fiancèe's cheek. "Shouldn't you be... Oh, I don't know... Out drinking blood? Like a vampire would do?" I would've offered up my blood - I actually kinda liked being bitten, as weird as it sounds - but Sierra was really finnicky about drinking from me. Then again, she seemed finnicky about drinking from anyone... What exactly was her deal with that? I mean, some people - myself included - are actually willing to be bitten without being forced into it, and Sierra was so controlled that she hasn't really, y'know, killed me or taken a dangerous amount of blood, so what gives?

I think - think - the whole 'Being a real mom' thing was going well. I mean, Abby still got a bit b****y about the past and wouldn't let me hang out with her too much, but at least she was occassionally allowing me to be in her presence! That was a start, right? Actually the main problem wasn't Abby, it was everyone else. I think by now everyone in this place has heard of Abby and knows that I'm the mom who walked out on her and I have been given lots of dirty looks and even a few whispered comments when people thought I couldn't hear. It sucked knowing that a lot of people - people who I didn't even really know - hated me. I was trying to avoid all that drama today, since Abby was away on a trip with Holland and Jeremy, well, he was probably spending time with that Alix girl. My location of choice was the library, since it was pretty easy to disappear in there, and I was sat in the armchair, reading a random book I had picked up.

The halloween party ended too quickly, now we all had to go back to school. Ugh, I couldn't wait until Christmas vacation, school was boring! At least it was lunchtime right now. I think TJ had disappeared with Genesis and it was too cold to stay outside, so Kara and I had made the quick trip from the school to the mansion to hang out in the music room. "Y'know, they should've built a music room in the school," I told KJ, sitting down on a stool and picking up the nearby guitar, strumming a few chords absent-mindedly. "That way we wouldn't have to walk outside in the freezing cold." My gaze moved away away from the guitar, to my best friend, throwing her a smile. "Heck, they could even build a corridor - a heated corridor - linking the mansion and the school so that we don't have to go outside. What do you think?"

I had to take the day off of work due to yet more vomitting. Samuel had also taken the day off to care for me. I hadn't wanted to be a bother, but he insisted so I asked him to go to the drug store and buy some pregnancy tests. Yup, the notoriously late monthly was too late now, so I was starting to believe that our months of trying for a baby had finally paid off. I took the test twice, then waited for the results in what was an agonizing 5 minutes. Gosh, could the time go any slower?! As soon as the 5 mins were over, I practically lunged for the tests. Then grinned. Grinned the best, cheek-hurting grin as I looked down at the positive results. I was pregnant! I was going to be a mother! Sam was going to be a father! I tried to conceal my squeals of exctitement, not wanting to give things away just yet. As soon as I was calmer, I left the bathroom to meet an anxiously pacing husband. "Well, Samuel," I started, my smile probably giving away the results. "I think we're going to have to start thinking of baby names!" I held up the tests as proof of my pregnancy, just in case Sam thought I was messing with him. Finally, we're gonna be parents! And da- Oh gosh, how was I going to tell dad I was pregnant? Whether I wanted this or not, he'd go crazy!

So, we were going back to my parent's ranch in about a week. Dilynn and I had already packed and we had made sure that Tucker had all the shots her needed before he went on vacation with us. I was a bit too excited to go, though, I mean, the road trip would take a couple days at the least so I didn't really have to wait long until we hit the road but still... "Why don't we just go now?" I asked my girlfriend, scratching the overgrown pup's back as he sprawled across across both of our laps. "We'll get there a couple days early and get settled, and there's nothing really stopping us from going now, right?"

Having lunch with Micah was a normal thing, since he was the first friend Sora had ever had. Usually Robyn joined them but she was kind of a social butterfly and was playing with some other friends today, so it was just Sora and Micah sitting in the classroom with their lunchboxes (Because it was too cold outside). As Sora opened her lunchbox, she gasped in surprise as she spotted a couple mini cookies. "Cookies!" The little girl exclaimed loudly, shoving one into her mouth. The young Princess then looked over to her boy friend - that wasn't her boyfriend, because boys had cooties - and held a cookie out to him. "Want one?" She asked, quickly swallowing her mouthful. Sora then began to wave the cookie in front of Micah's nose. "Come on! You know you want it!" The five year old giggled a little, pressing to cookie to Micah's lips to try and make him eat it.

So the Halloween party incident had been... Wrong, and inappropriate and... Amazing, but what the heck had I been thinking? The only thing sleeping with Chloe had accomplished was the realisation that she didn't really see me as someone she'd like to settle down with one day, just some one she wanted to hook up with, and I doubted she'd ever see me as a serious partner. It kind of put a downer on the next couple of days, and what was my favourite way to deal with sadness? Push it to one side, ignoring it as much as possible, and throw myself into working! That's right, no comfort food and movies for me, just a huge book about how to run a business, since I was just weeks away from opening the apothecary. I was sat in the living room right now reading ridiculously huge book. I did try to pay attention to my surroundings as well - I didn't exactly want to bump into Chloe at this particular moment in time - but mostly I tried to focus on my studying so that I could run a successful business.

Luna was so on edge that even through her sobs she'd be able to hear a pin drop. When she heard a soft thud, she looked up to see that all the mean kids had toppled over. She was too upset to giggle, but knowing Jack had probably caused them to randomly fall over somehow, she couldn't help a small smile. The shocked children got up and started running away, returning all the attention to the adults.

Emily scowled at the redhead woman. "By 'Our' regulations, I did in fact mean the state's regulations, ma'am. I'm not stupid." She felt like slapping the woman, honestly, but Katherine got the papers back then and Emily instead focused on them. She glared at the papers. Everything seemed to be in order, except for where the woman lived which infuriated her. Usually there would be a visit to the home, but with the so called 'Immortal mansion' they had strict orders to never go there and just trust the government's word that it was good enough for the children to live in. Why they weren't allowed to inspect the place, Emily didn't know, but the fact that she wouldn't be able to go and try to find a flaw meant that there was nothing preventing the freakshow from being adopted. With a frustrated sigh, she finally gave in. "Katherine, get her files."

They were letting her go! They were actually allowing Luna to be adopted! The 7 year old wiped her tears away and smiled a little as Katherine the receptionist pulled out the documents. Luna peered down at the papers, seeing a little picture of her sad self in the corner, but the name read Lyra Collins. Who was Lyra? That couldn't be her, right? No one had ever called her Lyra before. 'Alright, this is all the information for the little brat - birth certificate included - but before we print out the adoption certificate we do give the oppurtunity to change the child's name. Would you like to do that Miss-' Katherine looked down at the paper and her eyes widened. 'Miss Collins?' Luna's eyes widened as well as she looked at Alex. She was a Collins, too? Were they already related?
((I only just realised Alex's last name is Collins XD Imagine if they were distantly related and never knew it!))

Ugh, I already disliked Holland's dad. The looks he was giving us was judging, disapproving, disappointed in Holland and just... Generally negative! There was nothing wrong with us dating, we were just like any other couple! He should just be f***ing happy that his daughter had found someone who loved her! I tried not to look over at him, but every now and then I couldn't help but glance over with a slight glare in my eyes. In all honestly, I think it was a good thing that Holland dragged me away when she did, otherwise I would've said something.

The apology shouldn't have come from Holland, it should've came from her dad, and I was honestly about to rant about that but Opal suddenly appeared, apparently wanting to spending time with us. The little girl complimented my hair - I was getting compliments from all the women in this family - and I'll admit, it took me aback because I stil lwasn't entirely used to kids yet, especially ones outside my family. "Uhh, thanks, kid. You're hair's nice, too." I answered awkwardly before we entered the room.

Setting my suitcase down and taking off my coat, I flopped onto the bed and sighed. Even with a bit more privacy we weren't entirely alone, which sucked because I couldn't kiss my girlfriend and I couldn't rant about her dad. I felt like I was being forced to hold back everything I was feeling which was not good at all. To make things worse, I also had to hide what I was. Yeah, this trip wasn't going to be as fun as I thought it would be. I tried not to dwell on it that much, focusing my attention on Opal. "So," I got up, running a hand through my hair. "I'm Abby and this-" I wrapped an arm around my girlfriend's waist, gesturing to her. "Is Holland. She's your sister. I'm not, though. I'm her..." Gosh, how did you explain boyfriends and girlfriends to a 5 year old? "I'm... Kinda like what your mommy is to your daddy, I guess." Ice broken! Introductions done! Holland was so welcome.

I was so glad to be home! Although I wish it hadn't snowed just yet. About a foot of snow covered the ground, getting the ends of my skirt all wet and as for Matio, well, his shoes weren't entirely waterproof. Still, it was great to be back in a familiar environment, not a place full of weird fashion, confusing technology and cars, but a place filled with rosemaling dresses, no confusing technology and carts pulled by horses and the occasional reindeer. Glancing around at the main square while the few people brave enough to brace the freezing cold went about their daily lives, a huge grin spread across my face.

"Well, Matio, welcome to Arendelle!" Dropping my suitcase, I spread my arms out, gesturing to the colorful wooden houses and stores in front of me, covered in snow with icicles hanging along the edges of the roofs. Then instantly pulling my magenta cloak back around my arms because it was freezing! "So, what do you think?" Biting my lip a little, I dared to glance at my boyfriend. His American clothes stood out like a sore thumb against the more old-fashioned attire of Arendelle. I kind of wished that I had worn my red sweater to make him feel better about it. I was wearing my green scarf, though, so that counted... Right?

I hated leaving Sora behind, I hated leaving Henry when things weren't entirely resolved, in a week when he really needed moral support, and I hated leaving my friends behind, especially Kennedy because she had no one to help her with Valerie now, or to protect her when that b****** showed up... But I really loved my job.

The flight out had taken 8 hours, but as soon as I got there I leapt into action as the head of espionage and intelligence gathering, explaining to my little squad the game plan of this mission, which I had already figured out weeks before. It was a covert mission, so we had to be as sneaky as possible, but we all knew what to do in case we were spotted. The huge warehouse we had to scope out was divided up amongst the team and I, as leader, would track down the office and try to gather as many useful files as possible or even listen in on phone calls if I could. We were given a couple hours to gather up whatever we needed for the mission and then tonight, around 10pm local time, was when the real fun would begin.

We were babysitting Sora for Yuffie while she was away. I had decided to take the week off so that Elsa could have my full support while she took on the task of temporary mom. Right now, however, Sora was at the immortal school, giving Elsa and I some rare and treasure alone time. Well, almost alone time. Jotunn was curcled up against Elsa's side as we cuddled in bed, my laptop acting as a makeshift tv as we watched a movie. I wasn't entirely focused on the movie, though, I was more focused on showering my girlfriend with affection, snuggling and kisses, enjoying her company. "I know you're probably missing Anna, but isn't the peace and quiet really nice?" I asked in a hushed tone, kissing Elsa's temple. "I mean, there's no Yuffie to bother us, Anna isn't here to disrupt our alone time, Kennedy doesn't tend to bother us anyway and Sora's at school. We finallly have some time to ourselves to relax." Considering I had been spending more time working to pay for Elsa's secret anniversary gift and time together had been pretty sparce, this little moment was exactly what Elsa and I needed. It was a shame that it would end once school was over.

I jumped at the sound of Kyle's voice, blushing bright red. Oh gosh, how did he wake up? Why did he have to wake up now?! I couldn't dwell on that right now, though, I had to win this tug of war. "I will once I get my towel back!" I said through gritted teeth, the words coming out in a muffled mix. Giving the strongest tug I could, Sunny surrendered, the sudden-ness causing my to fall back and whack my head against the bed. Not that I was entirely phased by that, I was to busy smelling sweet victory. "Winner!" I exclaimed, holding my towel up in the air. Sure it was full of holes now, but I had proved myself to be the alpha female and that was what mattered the most! Beaming with pride at myself, I clambered to my feet and leaned over to give my boyfriend a kiss and a "Good morning, Kylie Kyle." Before returning to the draw to grab some clothes. Once I had at least got my underwear and bra on, I turned back to my sleepy Kyle, asking, "Are we going to do something fun today, or are you going to stay in bed and be Mr Sleepy Sleeperton?" He couldn't just go back to sleep! It was almost Christmas and 'almost christmas' means fun time! We had to decorate the room and gets presents and wrap them and make cookies and- and loads of other fun things! There was just so much to do!

*Is lying on the couch hugging a water bottle while the laptop sits on the coffee table playing Orange Is The New Black.* O///O F***! Alex just threatened to f*** another girl and went into detail about it! Anyone else incredibly turned on right now? You're the only one watching it. -_- It was rhetorical. Whatever, even if you are turned on, it's not like you can do anything about it at this time of month. I know, it sucks >.< *Sighs.* But at least I know that the person Holland's based off of is just as hot and sexy as the real thing. *Rolls eyes.* Great, so now you basically have two Hollands to drool over >.< Yup!

I don't know if we have a local depression clinic around here :/

You should do. Hmmmm... One sec.

Well I was hoping to find some locations of clinics on this leaflet but nope. It has some useful websites though, so do you want me to give you them?

If you go to your doctor and say you believe you're suffering from depression he/she hould be able to point you in the direction of places that can help you

If you could give me the links that would be great. I don't have like a certain doctor though since I rarely need to go so...
Anyway I need to go, going to see Adam and other family so see you later ^_^

www.livinglifetothefull.com
www.depressionalliance.org
www.moodgym.anu.edu.au

The second one looks most useful. Also,

Book:
Overcoming Depression by Paul Gilbert
Robinson Publishing
ISB 9781841191256

Bye!

*Looks down at her stomach and pouts.* I'm fat. You're not fat, you're bloated. I feel fat, though Ugh, I just hate monthlies >.< I feel fat, my b**bs hurt, my stomach aches and I feel greasy! Who would wanna date me when I'm like this?! DX Your girlfriend? *Shakes her head.* My sexiness level has dropped from an 8.5 to a 1; I don't think even Holland would wanna date me when I'm in this state >.< Well if you're willing to deal with her monthly issues, it's only fair that she deal with yours so I wouldn't worry about it. How would you know? You've never been with another woman! DX *Sighs.* This is gonna be a long day >.<

Bleh so bored and I lack motivation to do anything :/

I've watched 8 episodes of Orange Is The New Black in 2 days because of boredom - and that's not even including the one I watched with Holland the other night - and I'm still bored, so I know your pain, Scampi. I also know the pain because I've just been sat here waiting for someone to come online.