The House Of Immortality

I should really get going to bed. School tomorrow, and I have to take the bus.

Goodnight!

I said ignore your dad! He's a f***ing twat and if he was my dad, I would've killed him already, or maybe phone a child abuse helpline because of all the verbal abuse he gives you! And as for punishing yourself, THIS ISN'T PUNISHMENT AND YOU DON'T DESERVE TO HURT YOURSELF! Everyone's a b**** sometimes, but that doesn't mean that you deserve to hurt yourself! Being punished is having your computer taken away for a week, not hurting yourself for the rest of your f***ing life! And don't you dare start doing drugs! You'll turn into my friend if you do that abd immediately her best friends and family turned away from her and didn't even want to know her. And do you know how many drug addicts end up on the streets and doing crimes? MOST of them!!!

I probably wouldn't get very high anyways. My dad never could *shrug* And I naturally get high. Just not the kind of high I want *sigh* And my dad just has high expectation of all of us.. Not in school but in life. And I guess we all let him down. I want to move away already but I can't. I can't go to college yet, and I can't move in with a friend. My dad would just bring me back if I went anywhere before I was 18. I've thought of running away before but he would just find me.
And I guess punishment isn't the right word. More of, feeling what I make other people feel I guess. I don't know. I really have no clue why I do it. I just want to *sigh* School's my safe haven from my house but I hate school. So home's my safe haven from school. Damn vicious circle..
I mean, you all say I'm a good person and everything but you haven't actually met me.. You haven't seen how I act at school or around friends.
I don't know *Slumps against a wall* I wanna get drunk since it would be an escape from life and I want drugs since it would make things seem ok but it wouldn't help much. Not for long anyways.
Maybe I'll just go back to sleep. Sleep never makes things better but it's a break from thinking about my life.
Bye.

I should go get ready for school now. Bye.

I had a feeling when I would drop by no one would be online..... D:

I have school...

ah.I know XD

Yup.

-_- i swear my little cousin is so ANNOYING! he thinks he knows more than me and I said 'look,I was born first,I know what im doing.' he acts like if he knows it all! and hes 9!

and dang,my aunts dryer is LOUD -

Sometimes younger kids do know more. I sometimes learn from my younger sister.

hes slow...he cries about the tinyest things..now I didnt cry for little things.Maybe here and there because it was good,cool,whatever.but trust me,when I went to download minecraft for him hes like, 'log in and try this' and i said 'i have tried it 1million times,its not gonna work' dooes he listen..NO! but he is at skool till 3:30 and my 11 and 13 yearold cousins come home early so I can play with them before the baby comes..

f**k. I woke up and I was like, "why am I at my uncles house?" Then I'm like, "oh" -_-

That sucks Rae.

I hate that too rae..even though I dont know what reason but ya...XD

If you read back you would.

"Yup, most days." Kirsty answered with a grin. "Except for Tuesday and Thursday afternoons when Darren helps coach soccer at the school."

"It's as if Kirsty never leaves our house." I said with fake annoyance before sticking my tongue out when she faked looking offended. "It's fine, I don't mind you never leaving. We've had some pretty cool sleepovers because of it."

Abby grinned and clapped her hands, glad about the fact that daddy would be proud of her if he was here to see her being a good girl.

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